"It's me as a woman"

It's my theme for this year. All works are woman body. Come out from myself ; different personality, character, feeling, experience ; all in me. When you considerate about yourself " who you are and how you are", you will amaze how many different things in you.

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Make the Living by being artist, is it dream?

I heard that all the time. Is it something wrong with me to think about making artist as a career? Most people said I can do that just for a hobby. That because most of artists do. I don't know why I have never stop thinking like that. And why I have to be the same with other? Is there something wrong if I think differently? I might a dreamer, but at least I knew what I really what to do for my life. How many people know what they want for their life? How many people follow what they dream about? How many people stop to listen voice from their heart? People are too busy life in these days.

I remember when I was young. In Thailand which capitalism become stronger. "You should learn to be what make good money in your future" I also heard that all the time and I believed it.( in my stupid and young age) I 've never been taught to listen to my heart what I really want to be. I told myself "Traveling" is a thing that I was interested. Be a tour guide make good money plus travel, seems it's a good deal. That was an idea. Then I became a tour guide. But I realized it wasn't me. I didn't born to be that way.

I had changed many jobs in my life but it always suffered me. I felt like I forced myself to do what I don't want to do. I felt miserable and depress. Some people don't understand why. They think I'm lazy and picky, but I'm not. My brain just don't work out for capitalism jobs. I did try.

I knew that I will never become rich by being an artist. But I don't need too much money anyway. And I accept a thing what people said. Become successful artist is tough and doesn't make enough money to live. If people think to buy art like they buy the car, I will be very happy with it.

However I will never ever stop to dream for my life as long as I can breath. I really passionate with my art and I addicted with happiness of art creation. I am not proud of myself as a salary person, but I am proud of myself as a art creator.

Why do you create art?

This is from Fresnoart.net Discussion. It's interesting enough for me to post it here.

For my opinion, people have many different reasons to do what they do. It doesn't have to be the same reason to do in the same thing. And Inspiration comes from yourself or other pass through you depend on what is the most important thing in your life or theory of your thought.

I have no children. I think who you are, how you feel, what you concern about or anything else ,all effect your art a lot because you are art and art is in you. Not only the painting(material) called art. Art comes from your mind and soul. Even I sold the painting to people. I don't feel that I lost my art. The painting is the result of our art. It can be anywhere in the world, but it's still with you.
For my thought, as long as we're happy what we're doing, it's good. I always think what other people think about me or how crazy I am, it's not their business. Selling your art or not depend on your situation and your willing. Just do what make you're happy! If the world have only same color how the world will be beautiful!!

My Invention

I invented a unique style of Bas-Relief with Painting in Mixed Medium. I am Pleased with the public response to my style of Artistic expression. I created the technique with a special formula of recycled products that when blended strong enough to hold my three dimensional pictures securely in their frames. I mostly use acrylics for color and effect...also oil and watercolors on certain pieces for depth and shading purposes. I leave the surface rough, as this adds to their allure and psycological flavor. I manufacture my own Frames using existing materials by restoring discarded frames.

It's me Size : 2.4’x4.5’

This one was inspired by myself, took my own photo (my body) and put my feeling in to it. I had many depressions in my life. I had no family. Actually I had but never felt it. I use the technic black crack, line on the body and masks of soul in the past to explain my feeling , depressing inside mind. The feet come out over the frame and head was press under the frame, mean everything so press me like I'm in the coffin. (You will see this clearly if the pictures with frame.)

Well I don't always feel this way. It's just a part of life that every body had it. I also had lot of good times in my life. Sometime if we look at bad things that happend in positive way, it always has some good things in that bad things. It depends on how we think about it. In my 32 of ages, I had learnt something, the way of my thought had changed by experience. Sometime I don't understand something until it's time to understand.